personality test

i read an interesting link which when i took it, creepy. ung results ako talaga. hhaha. =P

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I'm never good at anything,

One great thing about the events that passed through my life is that I have spent lots of time thinking. Now, I'd say I used more of my brain than my heart. For the past 24 years of my life, I recalled, I could not think of anything I probably excel in. Like arts, craft, or whatsoever. Anything exceptional for that matter.

And so, I sorta made a list of things I kinda have an idea of doing, but yet did not really put much of my heart into it, thats why I did not excel.

1) I used to play piano as a kid. No really, thats the reason why we have a piano at home. I used to have piano lessons in yamaha, plus I had a piano tutor. As I grew older, I realized that piano wasnt my type. I have short little unflexi fingers that could not press the piano key hard enough.

2) I used to do voice lessons in yamaha. I always dreamed of being a singer someday. I look up to Celine Dion, wherein back in HS, I bought every album of hers and listen to it everyday. I do a mini concert in my room using my brush as a mic. =) But, later in HS, I quit my dreams of being a singer. I dont know, one day, I forgot that I ever want to sing.

3) Back in elem, we had a project where we do cross stitching, I liked it for awhile, but got exhausted because it seemed to me that again, cross stitching was so girly and that I did not like it again. And then I stopped doing so, I knew well however, that cross stitching wasnt my thing. Im not much of a domesticated person.

4) In college, (without any outer influence, promise) I wanted to take architecture or interior design. I love houses, I love looking at fantastic architectural structures and designs, I like seeing the world, I like playing sims (ahhaha), and so on.. yet, I suck at math. Someone told me that architecture and interior design had loads of math. So, I decided not to take it.

5) In college, I took up media production. Most of my mates ace in acting, I dont. I usually go behind the scenes. Though once, I wished to be infront of the cam, yet I know I'm not good at it, so I'll just leave it that way.

6) I'm not good at relationships. By now, everybody knows that. I went against all odds with a person who turned out to be not totally worth it. And I feel such a fool, realizing that on the past 7 years, I thought I was an expert in relationships. (or so I thought because back in college, my friends ask love advice from me) But apparently, I'm not good at it. Ironically, I feel like I suck at it big time.

7) In law school, my study habits never changed. Back in college, I hardly have books to read. The only time I read is when I'm revising my script, or reading the idiot board. I still want to be a lawyer thats why Im in law school, even my attention span is short, and I suck in formal writing.

8) I sometimes suck on being a sister and a daughter, I am not usually there for them, its either, I'm not in the mood, or I'm busy reading my books, or I'm too engrossed with my other problems that I forget that there is them.

9) I sometimes suck being a friend. Its either I dont feel like talking to you, I dont listen to gazillion advice, and all I tell you is my never ending life drama. I guess its my attitude of if I want something, I do everyall to get it.

10) I suck on being me sometimes. I lack self loving, self-satisfaction, self-care. I'm too busy making other people happy, that I forget what Im happy about. O yes, I just figured out, I was never happy. I guess its time to make myself one too.

I have lots of faults in life. I'm sure you have too. I guess I have to find something I'm good at. But hey, while I was doing the list pala, I figured out something I'm good at. I'm good at figuring out I'm not good at anything. =)

Great Realizations

Today, I avoided thinking of the things I should be avoiding, and doing the normal things I could have been doing if I was not so down with this problem. One person that made me realize such is when my brother told me that, "I told you so." Here are some great realizations I learned one the events that happened on the past few months.

1. I should have listened.
On a normal day, I am very stubborn. And its never easy to tell me what to do. Hindi sa nagmamagaling ako, but I do not like to be bossed around, by anyone, by anywho, at anyday. But sometimes, I have to listen because sometimes there are things I dont see and others do. There are some things they realize that I havent figured out.

2. Think.
Its a mind over matter thing. Again, someone way younger than me, that is ironically a person relatively close to him sent me a quote that, love is a state of mind. Love does not denote to the heart, but it is something that we can practically forget, and get over with. Just by putting to mind that Mind is over the heart. Somehow, in which case, I never used my effin brain for a second, so this is what happens.

3. Leave something for yourself.
I guess thats something I should change. Really. Even with friends, I am all out, I am always there. I love friends, I love family. I am always to the rescue. When I love, I love with all of me. I realized its unhealthy, I somehow need to leave something for myself, which is some great love.

4. Not everyone shall appreciate you.
Weird but true. The people who appreciated the sacrifices I did was not the person who I did it for, but the people around him. Weirder is that, he thinks that I never did sacrificed for him. What a shame. But Im pretty sure I did the best for him, because people around him saw I did. And if he does not appreciate it, whatever. God knows what I did, and everyone else knows what I did. Maybe you need some glasses to see it too.

5. Family and friends are still best.
I once was pathetically told that if I could have had sacrificed my family for this person, I could have been with him. Wrong. Imagine, if i left my family to be with him, and he leaves me in disgrace like this, I could have been overly depressed that I wanted to kill myself. But because I have great friends, and ever supportive cousins and family, I am still here standing and writing this realization blog. Btw, that thing he said, I think was selfish. I always have love for everyone around me.

6. Maturity.
Maturity is such a big word. Though it has a definition in the dictionary, the meaning of this word is still vague, and is depending on the person evaluating maturity. You can be mature when you can live on your own, or when you can drive a car, or when you are able to take care of your family. But not exactly. Maturity is how you handle things as an adult. How you deal with a break up, how you heal on your own, how you should be dealing with your ex-gf, how you find yourself to have some healing, and how you patiently wait for the right person to come and not pushing yourself to a person whom you know loves you, but you are not happy with.

7. Happiness.
Happiness is when you find yourself laughing your heart out, without any anger. Happiness is when you can face everyone in this world without angst, or without prejudice. Happiness is when you find yourself overly contented on where you are even without anyone filling the happiness for you. Happiness is when you fall on a deep sleep at night and waking up smiling the next morning, and saying hello world! I'm alive.

8. Moving On.
It is a long journey. The feeling does not go away overnight, nor it will when you fall in love with another person. Moving on means that when one day you see him, and you'll just think he is like any other person you come across everyday. By that time you have achieved such, you already have moved on. Sometimes, we force ourselves to love another so that we can finally achieve the moving on part. But at times, when we find ourselves in the quiet corners of being alone, we find ourselves thinking of the other person who we havent had moved on from. Or later on in our life, we miss this particular person we have once loved, and have enough regrets to ponder on. This means you have not moved on yet, we just forgotten this person for awhile and yet he/she is still there in your heart.

9. No regrets.
Having regrets means you havent moved on. Its the "sayang" stage. But once you have thought that it is the best thing for you, then you finally have moved on.

10. Memories should not be forgotten.
I have conquered alot of fears in the process. For the past 3 months I have been trying to avoid places that we constantly hangout. Ironically, I have been in all those places now. Recently was glorietta, where we were for the past 5 years. I did not held hands with anybody while I was walking in glo, but there was a smile on my face, and peace on my mind that once I held hands with a person while I was walking there, strolling, like any other inlove person. It was the best memory yet. And I will not forget that. It should not be, because in this experience, lessons were learned and though my heart broke into a million pieces, rest assured I will be able to face the world with all confidence once again. Starting today.

I should be a relationship expert now, ei? hahahha!
I should be replacing Dra. Margie Holmes na pla. teehee. =D

On Willie.

We had a family dinner last night in Conti's BF when we saw a showbiz mag having Willie Revillame as a cover. Allegedly, he is going out with the daughter of a popular buena de familia, Rachel Arenas, daughter of Baby Arenas.

This blog is not actually about the biz, its actually how willie is such a lucky individual.

I heard its a rag to riches story. Willie was a former poor boy when the Aquinos strike luck on him. Ow, the luck all right. He was married three times I think, one is with the sister of Maricel Soriano, who I happened to meet sometime last year. Mikee Soriano is my client, he buys his clothes from me for his boutique in Metrowalk, where he had a daughter, Merryl. His second wife, is also a part of a buena familia, Princess Punzalan, and his last wife, a model.

Its cool how Willie becomes some sort of Oprah of the Philippines. Most of his endorsements becomes top of the line consumer products, his TV show, Wowowie is a household name, and even a 3 years old kid, knows the theme song of the show and dances with its tune.

I will never know what his secret is, nor will you. I think he has a sort of anting-anting that makes everything he says come to life.

Our discussion over dinner was, Willie vs. Oprah, Willie vs. Sy, Tan and Ayala and Willie vs. Pacquiao. And so as we heard, Willie purchased a 70 million worth of a yacht wherein he pays for its parking in the club worth Php 100,000 per month. Executives of big companies roughly earn this price, and the glory of without thinking much, he has a yacht worth 70 million.

You see, unlike business tycoons; Sy, Tan and the Ayalas, I'm sure at some point of their business life they have exerted much brain power to get where they are right now. Being a business tycoon is no joke, you have to really exert too much effort to get to the top. Willie on the other hand, though I am pretty sure exerted some effort on getting where he is, roughly exerted equal effort as much as the business tycoons.

Even Pacquiao, who is now enjoying millions of dollars, and is a world-renowned boxer have put his health and life at risk on his sport. I quote, "Bago naman magkapera si Pacquiao kelangan magpasuntok muna sha." On this note, compared to the effort exerted of Willie, Pacquiao would need to undergo so much physical pain just to obtain millions.

Similarly, Willie and Oprah are the most influential people I know on this business. My brother calls her, "Saint Oprah" as anything you do and say against her will aggravate America. These are the 2 people I think who has destiny in favor of them and money written on their palms.

The end of the dinner discussion was, unlike others who have exerted much to get where they are right now, these people need not much to be them. Willie for instance, though I am pretty sure, to get where he is right now, has worked hard for it whereas the others who have worked hard all their lives, cannot buy even a residential home worth a million.

I dont know, some people were just born lucky, or some are there luckily on the right place at the right time.

I wish I will be. Taya kaya ako sa lotto? =D

SUMMER FIRST STOP: Catanduanes

Every friend of mine knows I am almost always gone during summers. I love exploring the world. My first love is really to travel. I dream of having my own chartered plane, and going to exciting destinations. I love seeing new places, exploring new things and eating yummy specialties.

This vaca, we kinda decided to stop going across the seas and focus on what we have locally. You see, the farthest I went in the Philippines is Bicol, where my mom is a native of. I memorize Naga by heart. Just like I memorize Paranaque.

This year, Catanduanes is our first stop. It is actually an island about 4 hours from Naga City, Bicol. From Naga, we have to travel (i think) through a ferry boat across the Ocean. It would be my first ferry experience. The only experience I have on crossing the waters is going to Puerto Galera, which is barely, double the distance from Naga to Catanduanes.
Catanduanes is popular for its great beach. You see, Catanduanes waters is the Pacific Ocean. So, if ever, it would be my first walking by the shore of the Pacific Ocean. Love.
I am not fond of beaches, but we'll see what Catanduanes will do to me.

Hopefully, our next stop is davao or cebu. or if we get lucky, Singapore.

Alas. I finally decided to have some simple blog page. As soon as i learn how to use this shit, I will personalize it.

Anyhu, I will keep you updated as soon as I find time to write a new post.

Ciao!