I have four days left until vaca is finally over. Today my goal is to finish watching the nanny series over youtube, and if I still have time, finish what dvd I havent watched since my brother kept buying dvds during my finals. Imagine, I was so inggit that he was watching dvds while I desperately needed to finish a whole book about civil procedure.
Its been quite awhile since I have not lived like this, no stress, no pressure, no attachments. Saturday night, I partied so hard that though I can remember everything that had happened, I know once again I was semi-guilty of DUI, I had a minor stomach ache during the morning because of alcohol. I swear the vodka sprite I drank was 70% vodka and only 30% sprite, that's why after 2 glasses, my freakin stomach hurt a bit and I was a little drowsy, because of the drink and the disco lights.
I finally saw the world again. Though walang masyadong guapo, at puro bata, I missed the old life I left behind way back, 7 years ago. When all I did was date and party, where my friends are my primary source of my inspiration and when I laughed the best and the hardest. =)
More on my vaca, I had awesome fun with Bicol with the best of my cousins. They told me lots about what they thought way before and how glad I have gotten over with it. Though it took sometime though, but relatively, I can project a smile up to my ears now, no kidding, hindi plastic. And for the longest time, nobody rushed me to go back to Manila, ako na nga lang ang nagsawa kasi walang masyadong gimikan dun, and walang guapo (haha) and I do not have to go to centro and call somebody from home because he was made tampo because I had to adjust my trip back home.
I had dinner with my best law school buds, ade and she. We havent seen ade for a long time, we had dinner in a posh resto, went walking around rockwell and went guapo hunting too. Without any hangups.
Best of all, I now have the best relations with my mom and bro. My bro seldom leaves the house without me, (except now he is in pansol with his friends) I suddenly appreciated the relationship I had with my family, which I almost lost because of some conflict. Though I still often have arguments with mom about little things, and now for the longest time din, nakakapagpaalam na ako ng legal on where I wanted to go and who I am with.
Vacation lang pala ang kailangan ko talaga e. And now vaca is over, I am off to a new start. On my third year in law school. Yey! Hindi ko nahalata, 2 years na lang pla, I have an LLB degree na. =)
Monday, April 27, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
The irony of things
My day was full of irony. hehe. Nakakainis minsan when you avoid to see or feel something yet you still get to see them, or when you not expect to see or feel something yet you still do because of.. yes, irony.
(1) I asked She to come with me to enroll in Are this afternoon. She is one of Atty. Porfi's fave (this was claimed by Atty. Porfi himself). I was soo afraid to enroll since I had sabit last semester. We went both today and Saturday, unfortunately last sat, it was Are Law Graduation, so Atty. Porfi was not there. Funny, because today naman, I was expecting Atty. Porfi, malakas ang backup ko, only to see it was Atty. Dave Ballesteros who will do the evaluation, so dapat pala si Anthony ang sinama ko at hindi si she.
(2) She and I were walking down the hallway when I suddenly smell the eewwie smell of dog food. Then when I came home, our house maid told me that chiqui does not have enough food anymore. (Chiqui is my dog)
(3) She and I decided to go to Rockwell para magboy hunting. We were so bored with our lives since it was still vaca, and we are both single (sabi ni she, de facto single lang sha, pero anjan pa din ang prinsipe ng buhay nya, anyway) as we were passing through ayala, we remembered ade and jer being in ayala as well, so we called them and ade (only) decided to meet up with us in glo 4. Hindi pala boys ang nahanap namen, si ade lang pala.
(4) Back when Ade was still in Arellano, she had a rocky relationship with his bf, and She and I had a blossoming romance with our better halves, ngayon baliktad na yata. Si ade na ang may blossoming lovelife, kami ni she, its complicated pa din.
(5) After parking my car at Basement 2 of Rockwell, nagulat ako na pagbaba ko ng car nakita ko yung doctor na sinasabi ni Ate Karen na taga-gatchalian the other night. Namukaan ko sha agad, plus I can recognize him because he was wearing his white coat still, with the MMC logo on it. The other night, she was building this guy up for me, at nagulat ako na he was parked right next to my car.
(6) I am not really sure if Cantinetta is really an italian resto, it seems to me though but the irony in this is that their pasta selection, i'd say, its not that good.
(7) On my way home, a song that should not be heard by me was played on the radio. Ang weird talaga nitong song na to, kasi months ago, twice ko shang hindi sinasadyang marinig, one in SM and one in S&R. Nakakainis, and kanina, i heard it nanaman. Funny si God, nanadya para daw masanay ako. haha.
(8) The other night was much eerie, it was 3am and I was driving home, almost tipsy of laughter, coffee and beer, when I heard over AM ( I was in AM kasi I was listening to the news about Ted Failon) when the DJ announces over the radio that someone wants to greet this certain guy, who exactly has the same name as him. hahha. natawa ako, at ang ironic dun, it was Saturday, 3am, April 18, 2009.
Sometimes, I am not really sure if fate is playing tricks on me wanting me to notice these things so I can get used to it being there. Kumbaga, co-exist. Baka nga. There are things we do not like but still are there to either entertain us, or make us stronger. Meron din naman na it means something, para maalala mo, or para matawa ka. It is actually an option, either to think its funny since its ironic, or just plain deadma. =)
(1) I asked She to come with me to enroll in Are this afternoon. She is one of Atty. Porfi's fave (this was claimed by Atty. Porfi himself). I was soo afraid to enroll since I had sabit last semester. We went both today and Saturday, unfortunately last sat, it was Are Law Graduation, so Atty. Porfi was not there. Funny, because today naman, I was expecting Atty. Porfi, malakas ang backup ko, only to see it was Atty. Dave Ballesteros who will do the evaluation, so dapat pala si Anthony ang sinama ko at hindi si she.
(2) She and I were walking down the hallway when I suddenly smell the eewwie smell of dog food. Then when I came home, our house maid told me that chiqui does not have enough food anymore. (Chiqui is my dog)
(3) She and I decided to go to Rockwell para magboy hunting. We were so bored with our lives since it was still vaca, and we are both single (sabi ni she, de facto single lang sha, pero anjan pa din ang prinsipe ng buhay nya, anyway) as we were passing through ayala, we remembered ade and jer being in ayala as well, so we called them and ade (only) decided to meet up with us in glo 4. Hindi pala boys ang nahanap namen, si ade lang pala.
(4) Back when Ade was still in Arellano, she had a rocky relationship with his bf, and She and I had a blossoming romance with our better halves, ngayon baliktad na yata. Si ade na ang may blossoming lovelife, kami ni she, its complicated pa din.
(5) After parking my car at Basement 2 of Rockwell, nagulat ako na pagbaba ko ng car nakita ko yung doctor na sinasabi ni Ate Karen na taga-gatchalian the other night. Namukaan ko sha agad, plus I can recognize him because he was wearing his white coat still, with the MMC logo on it. The other night, she was building this guy up for me, at nagulat ako na he was parked right next to my car.
(6) I am not really sure if Cantinetta is really an italian resto, it seems to me though but the irony in this is that their pasta selection, i'd say, its not that good.
(7) On my way home, a song that should not be heard by me was played on the radio. Ang weird talaga nitong song na to, kasi months ago, twice ko shang hindi sinasadyang marinig, one in SM and one in S&R. Nakakainis, and kanina, i heard it nanaman. Funny si God, nanadya para daw masanay ako. haha.
(8) The other night was much eerie, it was 3am and I was driving home, almost tipsy of laughter, coffee and beer, when I heard over AM ( I was in AM kasi I was listening to the news about Ted Failon) when the DJ announces over the radio that someone wants to greet this certain guy, who exactly has the same name as him. hahha. natawa ako, at ang ironic dun, it was Saturday, 3am, April 18, 2009.
Sometimes, I am not really sure if fate is playing tricks on me wanting me to notice these things so I can get used to it being there. Kumbaga, co-exist. Baka nga. There are things we do not like but still are there to either entertain us, or make us stronger. Meron din naman na it means something, para maalala mo, or para matawa ka. It is actually an option, either to think its funny since its ironic, or just plain deadma. =)
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Whats with facebook quizzes?
I am one of the many facebook users who finds ultimate fun in answering facebook quizzes. I get different answers which bores different answers in my mind. Some true, some weird, some ironic and some overly funny. Some actually answered every each of them that it floods the notifications area. =) I find it funny because some people actually believe in it, well in fact, if you've noticed, some surveys; 1) does not relate to the topic, 2) some questions are gramatically wrong, or is misspelled.
The results are even weirder and at some sense different from what we really are, here are some quizzes i took that had funny results;
(1) Edce just took the What Will Your Relationship Status Be in 20 Years? quiz and got the result: Married and Happy..
Married and Happy: Your marriage life may not be all that perfect. But you and your partner will be able to compromise with each other and straighten things out eventually.
If I would be believing this, one there is no partner, and two, more or else, this would what it would be like in a few years for me, "married, but not at all perfect, of course nothing is. "
(2) Edce took the saan mall ka lagi natambay quiz and the result is trinoma
isa sa malalaking mall dito sa pilipinas at isa sa pag aari ng ayala malls! at matatagpuan sa north ave, quezon city at katapat ng sm north! at dahil sa malaki tong mall at nakakapagod lakarin at napakamahal ng mga bilihin dito! at dito ka nararapat dahil kaya mo naman bumili ng mga expensive na gamit! at ikaw ay may kakayahan sa buhay!
Reality check. I have only been in trinoma 3x. One, is with my deranged ex, and the other two, is with kuya edmond, she and anthony during the final exams week. We do our "group study" in Starbucks by Landmark. I guess the most appropriate answer is I am often in glorietta, or in ATC, or in MOA, which is where I really am oftentimes.
(3) Edce completed the quiz "Pinoy Ka Ba Talaga???" with the result Hilaw Ka!.
Logout ka muna sa Facebook at pumunta sa pinakamalapit na fishball stand para mag-merienda. Marami-raming kikiam, squid balls, at penoy ka pang kakainin bago maging ganap na Pinoy. Ano kamo?? Mahina tiyan mo? Sige, mag-Greenwich o Chowking ka na lang. O kaya naman, maghanap ka ng malapit na gotohan o pares-pares (siguraduhing umorder ng extra rice). Pagkatapos kumain, dumerecho na sa SM o Robinson's at pumunta sa record bar; maghanap ka ng CDs ng Imago, Parokya ni Edgar, Eraserheads, o Sugarfree, at pakinggan ang mga CDs ng isang buong araw. Pagkatapos, bumili ka ng VCD o DVD ng "Jose Rizal", "Muro Ami", o "Dekada '70" at mag-movie marathon sa bahay..
Hello! I can eat on a fishball stand, i have gotten to eat pares many times, and listen to Parokya et.al and have watched dekada 70 many times. Its just that, I am not good in tagalog, (weird but I still get confused with kaldero and kawali, and sibuyas and bawang. hehe. ) But Im certainly 100% pinoy, and never a hilaw pinoy!
(4) Edce took the Anu ang papel mo sa barkadahan nyo.. quiz and the result is Leader ng grupo
lahat sila ikaw lagi ang tinatanong, ikaw ang nagoorganize ng mga events, ikaw ang huling nagbibigay ng comment pag may problema, ikaw din ang nagsasabi kung anu ang dapat nyong gawin, isang tawag mo lang sa kanila, siguradong alam nila na matutuloy ang lakad nyo.. Advice: may isa o higit na miyembro ang asar na asar sayo..
This is so not true, most of the time, when I plan something out it does not happen because at many times, I would not be there. hahaha. =) One thing here is true, I always have a comment on any problem. =))
(5) Edce took the "have u met ur true love yet?" quiz and the result is Meant for each other!.
you two r true soulmates! you love each other no matter what, and will stay together forever!
I took this test when I was still with my ex, which apparently did not end up so well, and is not so true, really. =) So i guess in reality, I havent met my true love yet. teeeheee. =)
With the irony of all these, I had received many comments which either affirmed or negate the results. But one thing is for sure, they are all weird, funny and plain hysterical. =)
how abt you, have u answered any weird quizzes lately?
The results are even weirder and at some sense different from what we really are, here are some quizzes i took that had funny results;
(1) Edce just took the What Will Your Relationship Status Be in 20 Years? quiz and got the result: Married and Happy..
Married and Happy: Your marriage life may not be all that perfect. But you and your partner will be able to compromise with each other and straighten things out eventually.
If I would be believing this, one there is no partner, and two, more or else, this would what it would be like in a few years for me, "married, but not at all perfect, of course nothing is. "
(2) Edce took the saan mall ka lagi natambay quiz and the result is trinoma
isa sa malalaking mall dito sa pilipinas at isa sa pag aari ng ayala malls! at matatagpuan sa north ave, quezon city at katapat ng sm north! at dahil sa malaki tong mall at nakakapagod lakarin at napakamahal ng mga bilihin dito! at dito ka nararapat dahil kaya mo naman bumili ng mga expensive na gamit! at ikaw ay may kakayahan sa buhay!
Reality check. I have only been in trinoma 3x. One, is with my deranged ex, and the other two, is with kuya edmond, she and anthony during the final exams week. We do our "group study" in Starbucks by Landmark. I guess the most appropriate answer is I am often in glorietta, or in ATC, or in MOA, which is where I really am oftentimes.
(3) Edce completed the quiz "Pinoy Ka Ba Talaga???" with the result Hilaw Ka!.
Logout ka muna sa Facebook at pumunta sa pinakamalapit na fishball stand para mag-merienda. Marami-raming kikiam, squid balls, at penoy ka pang kakainin bago maging ganap na Pinoy. Ano kamo?? Mahina tiyan mo? Sige, mag-Greenwich o Chowking ka na lang. O kaya naman, maghanap ka ng malapit na gotohan o pares-pares (siguraduhing umorder ng extra rice). Pagkatapos kumain, dumerecho na sa SM o Robinson's at pumunta sa record bar; maghanap ka ng CDs ng Imago, Parokya ni Edgar, Eraserheads, o Sugarfree, at pakinggan ang mga CDs ng isang buong araw. Pagkatapos, bumili ka ng VCD o DVD ng "Jose Rizal", "Muro Ami", o "Dekada '70" at mag-movie marathon sa bahay..
Hello! I can eat on a fishball stand, i have gotten to eat pares many times, and listen to Parokya et.al and have watched dekada 70 many times. Its just that, I am not good in tagalog, (weird but I still get confused with kaldero and kawali, and sibuyas and bawang. hehe. ) But Im certainly 100% pinoy, and never a hilaw pinoy!
(4) Edce took the Anu ang papel mo sa barkadahan nyo.. quiz and the result is Leader ng grupo
lahat sila ikaw lagi ang tinatanong, ikaw ang nagoorganize ng mga events, ikaw ang huling nagbibigay ng comment pag may problema, ikaw din ang nagsasabi kung anu ang dapat nyong gawin, isang tawag mo lang sa kanila, siguradong alam nila na matutuloy ang lakad nyo.. Advice: may isa o higit na miyembro ang asar na asar sayo..
This is so not true, most of the time, when I plan something out it does not happen because at many times, I would not be there. hahaha. =) One thing here is true, I always have a comment on any problem. =))
(5) Edce took the "have u met ur true love yet?" quiz and the result is Meant for each other!.
you two r true soulmates! you love each other no matter what, and will stay together forever!
I took this test when I was still with my ex, which apparently did not end up so well, and is not so true, really. =) So i guess in reality, I havent met my true love yet. teeeheee. =)
With the irony of all these, I had received many comments which either affirmed or negate the results. But one thing is for sure, they are all weird, funny and plain hysterical. =)
how abt you, have u answered any weird quizzes lately?
Monday, March 30, 2009
personality test
i read an interesting link which when i took it, creepy. ung results ako talaga. hhaha. =P
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
http://www.quizbox.com/per
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
I'm never good at anything,
One great thing about the events that passed through my life is that I have spent lots of time thinking. Now, I'd say I used more of my brain than my heart. For the past 24 years of my life, I recalled, I could not think of anything I probably excel in. Like arts, craft, or whatsoever. Anything exceptional for that matter.
And so, I sorta made a list of things I kinda have an idea of doing, but yet did not really put much of my heart into it, thats why I did not excel.
1) I used to play piano as a kid. No really, thats the reason why we have a piano at home. I used to have piano lessons in yamaha, plus I had a piano tutor. As I grew older, I realized that piano wasnt my type. I have short little unflexi fingers that could not press the piano key hard enough.
2) I used to do voice lessons in yamaha. I always dreamed of being a singer someday. I look up to Celine Dion, wherein back in HS, I bought every album of hers and listen to it everyday. I do a mini concert in my room using my brush as a mic. =) But, later in HS, I quit my dreams of being a singer. I dont know, one day, I forgot that I ever want to sing.
3) Back in elem, we had a project where we do cross stitching, I liked it for awhile, but got exhausted because it seemed to me that again, cross stitching was so girly and that I did not like it again. And then I stopped doing so, I knew well however, that cross stitching wasnt my thing. Im not much of a domesticated person.
4) In college, (without any outer influence, promise) I wanted to take architecture or interior design. I love houses, I love looking at fantastic architectural structures and designs, I like seeing the world, I like playing sims (ahhaha), and so on.. yet, I suck at math. Someone told me that architecture and interior design had loads of math. So, I decided not to take it.
5) In college, I took up media production. Most of my mates ace in acting, I dont. I usually go behind the scenes. Though once, I wished to be infront of the cam, yet I know I'm not good at it, so I'll just leave it that way.
6) I'm not good at relationships. By now, everybody knows that. I went against all odds with a person who turned out to be not totally worth it. And I feel such a fool, realizing that on the past 7 years, I thought I was an expert in relationships. (or so I thought because back in college, my friends ask love advice from me) But apparently, I'm not good at it. Ironically, I feel like I suck at it big time.
7) In law school, my study habits never changed. Back in college, I hardly have books to read. The only time I read is when I'm revising my script, or reading the idiot board. I still want to be a lawyer thats why Im in law school, even my attention span is short, and I suck in formal writing.
8) I sometimes suck on being a sister and a daughter, I am not usually there for them, its either, I'm not in the mood, or I'm busy reading my books, or I'm too engrossed with my other problems that I forget that there is them.
9) I sometimes suck being a friend. Its either I dont feel like talking to you, I dont listen to gazillion advice, and all I tell you is my never ending life drama. I guess its my attitude of if I want something, I do everyall to get it.
10) I suck on being me sometimes. I lack self loving, self-satisfaction, self-care. I'm too busy making other people happy, that I forget what Im happy about. O yes, I just figured out, I was never happy. I guess its time to make myself one too.
I have lots of faults in life. I'm sure you have too. I guess I have to find something I'm good at. But hey, while I was doing the list pala, I figured out something I'm good at. I'm good at figuring out I'm not good at anything. =)
And so, I sorta made a list of things I kinda have an idea of doing, but yet did not really put much of my heart into it, thats why I did not excel.
1) I used to play piano as a kid. No really, thats the reason why we have a piano at home. I used to have piano lessons in yamaha, plus I had a piano tutor. As I grew older, I realized that piano wasnt my type. I have short little unflexi fingers that could not press the piano key hard enough.
2) I used to do voice lessons in yamaha. I always dreamed of being a singer someday. I look up to Celine Dion, wherein back in HS, I bought every album of hers and listen to it everyday. I do a mini concert in my room using my brush as a mic. =) But, later in HS, I quit my dreams of being a singer. I dont know, one day, I forgot that I ever want to sing.
3) Back in elem, we had a project where we do cross stitching, I liked it for awhile, but got exhausted because it seemed to me that again, cross stitching was so girly and that I did not like it again. And then I stopped doing so, I knew well however, that cross stitching wasnt my thing. Im not much of a domesticated person.
4) In college, (without any outer influence, promise) I wanted to take architecture or interior design. I love houses, I love looking at fantastic architectural structures and designs, I like seeing the world, I like playing sims (ahhaha), and so on.. yet, I suck at math. Someone told me that architecture and interior design had loads of math. So, I decided not to take it.
5) In college, I took up media production. Most of my mates ace in acting, I dont. I usually go behind the scenes. Though once, I wished to be infront of the cam, yet I know I'm not good at it, so I'll just leave it that way.
6) I'm not good at relationships. By now, everybody knows that. I went against all odds with a person who turned out to be not totally worth it. And I feel such a fool, realizing that on the past 7 years, I thought I was an expert in relationships. (or so I thought because back in college, my friends ask love advice from me) But apparently, I'm not good at it. Ironically, I feel like I suck at it big time.
7) In law school, my study habits never changed. Back in college, I hardly have books to read. The only time I read is when I'm revising my script, or reading the idiot board. I still want to be a lawyer thats why Im in law school, even my attention span is short, and I suck in formal writing.
8) I sometimes suck on being a sister and a daughter, I am not usually there for them, its either, I'm not in the mood, or I'm busy reading my books, or I'm too engrossed with my other problems that I forget that there is them.
9) I sometimes suck being a friend. Its either I dont feel like talking to you, I dont listen to gazillion advice, and all I tell you is my never ending life drama. I guess its my attitude of if I want something, I do everyall to get it.
10) I suck on being me sometimes. I lack self loving, self-satisfaction, self-care. I'm too busy making other people happy, that I forget what Im happy about. O yes, I just figured out, I was never happy. I guess its time to make myself one too.
I have lots of faults in life. I'm sure you have too. I guess I have to find something I'm good at. But hey, while I was doing the list pala, I figured out something I'm good at. I'm good at figuring out I'm not good at anything. =)
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Great Realizations
Today, I avoided thinking of the things I should be avoiding, and doing the normal things I could have been doing if I was not so down with this problem. One person that made me realize such is when my brother told me that, "I told you so." Here are some great realizations I learned one the events that happened on the past few months.
1. I should have listened.
On a normal day, I am very stubborn. And its never easy to tell me what to do. Hindi sa nagmamagaling ako, but I do not like to be bossed around, by anyone, by anywho, at anyday. But sometimes, I have to listen because sometimes there are things I dont see and others do. There are some things they realize that I havent figured out.
2. Think.
Its a mind over matter thing. Again, someone way younger than me, that is ironically a person relatively close to him sent me a quote that, love is a state of mind. Love does not denote to the heart, but it is something that we can practically forget, and get over with. Just by putting to mind that Mind is over the heart. Somehow, in which case, I never used my effin brain for a second, so this is what happens.
3. Leave something for yourself.
I guess thats something I should change. Really. Even with friends, I am all out, I am always there. I love friends, I love family. I am always to the rescue. When I love, I love with all of me. I realized its unhealthy, I somehow need to leave something for myself, which is some great love.
4. Not everyone shall appreciate you.
Weird but true. The people who appreciated the sacrifices I did was not the person who I did it for, but the people around him. Weirder is that, he thinks that I never did sacrificed for him. What a shame. But Im pretty sure I did the best for him, because people around him saw I did. And if he does not appreciate it, whatever. God knows what I did, and everyone else knows what I did. Maybe you need some glasses to see it too.
5. Family and friends are still best.
I once was pathetically told that if I could have had sacrificed my family for this person, I could have been with him. Wrong. Imagine, if i left my family to be with him, and he leaves me in disgrace like this, I could have been overly depressed that I wanted to kill myself. But because I have great friends, and ever supportive cousins and family, I am still here standing and writing this realization blog. Btw, that thing he said, I think was selfish. I always have love for everyone around me.
6. Maturity.
Maturity is such a big word. Though it has a definition in the dictionary, the meaning of this word is still vague, and is depending on the person evaluating maturity. You can be mature when you can live on your own, or when you can drive a car, or when you are able to take care of your family. But not exactly. Maturity is how you handle things as an adult. How you deal with a break up, how you heal on your own, how you should be dealing with your ex-gf, how you find yourself to have some healing, and how you patiently wait for the right person to come and not pushing yourself to a person whom you know loves you, but you are not happy with.
7. Happiness.
Happiness is when you find yourself laughing your heart out, without any anger. Happiness is when you can face everyone in this world without angst, or without prejudice. Happiness is when you find yourself overly contented on where you are even without anyone filling the happiness for you. Happiness is when you fall on a deep sleep at night and waking up smiling the next morning, and saying hello world! I'm alive.
8. Moving On.
It is a long journey. The feeling does not go away overnight, nor it will when you fall in love with another person. Moving on means that when one day you see him, and you'll just think he is like any other person you come across everyday. By that time you have achieved such, you already have moved on. Sometimes, we force ourselves to love another so that we can finally achieve the moving on part. But at times, when we find ourselves in the quiet corners of being alone, we find ourselves thinking of the other person who we havent had moved on from. Or later on in our life, we miss this particular person we have once loved, and have enough regrets to ponder on. This means you have not moved on yet, we just forgotten this person for awhile and yet he/she is still there in your heart.
9. No regrets.
Having regrets means you havent moved on. Its the "sayang" stage. But once you have thought that it is the best thing for you, then you finally have moved on.
10. Memories should not be forgotten.
I have conquered alot of fears in the process. For the past 3 months I have been trying to avoid places that we constantly hangout. Ironically, I have been in all those places now. Recently was glorietta, where we were for the past 5 years. I did not held hands with anybody while I was walking in glo, but there was a smile on my face, and peace on my mind that once I held hands with a person while I was walking there, strolling, like any other inlove person. It was the best memory yet. And I will not forget that. It should not be, because in this experience, lessons were learned and though my heart broke into a million pieces, rest assured I will be able to face the world with all confidence once again. Starting today.
I should be a relationship expert now, ei? hahahha!
I should be replacing Dra. Margie Holmes na pla. teehee. =D
1. I should have listened.
On a normal day, I am very stubborn. And its never easy to tell me what to do. Hindi sa nagmamagaling ako, but I do not like to be bossed around, by anyone, by anywho, at anyday. But sometimes, I have to listen because sometimes there are things I dont see and others do. There are some things they realize that I havent figured out.
2. Think.
Its a mind over matter thing. Again, someone way younger than me, that is ironically a person relatively close to him sent me a quote that, love is a state of mind. Love does not denote to the heart, but it is something that we can practically forget, and get over with. Just by putting to mind that Mind is over the heart. Somehow, in which case, I never used my effin brain for a second, so this is what happens.
3. Leave something for yourself.
I guess thats something I should change. Really. Even with friends, I am all out, I am always there. I love friends, I love family. I am always to the rescue. When I love, I love with all of me. I realized its unhealthy, I somehow need to leave something for myself, which is some great love.
4. Not everyone shall appreciate you.
Weird but true. The people who appreciated the sacrifices I did was not the person who I did it for, but the people around him. Weirder is that, he thinks that I never did sacrificed for him. What a shame. But Im pretty sure I did the best for him, because people around him saw I did. And if he does not appreciate it, whatever. God knows what I did, and everyone else knows what I did. Maybe you need some glasses to see it too.
5. Family and friends are still best.
I once was pathetically told that if I could have had sacrificed my family for this person, I could have been with him. Wrong. Imagine, if i left my family to be with him, and he leaves me in disgrace like this, I could have been overly depressed that I wanted to kill myself. But because I have great friends, and ever supportive cousins and family, I am still here standing and writing this realization blog. Btw, that thing he said, I think was selfish. I always have love for everyone around me.
6. Maturity.
Maturity is such a big word. Though it has a definition in the dictionary, the meaning of this word is still vague, and is depending on the person evaluating maturity. You can be mature when you can live on your own, or when you can drive a car, or when you are able to take care of your family. But not exactly. Maturity is how you handle things as an adult. How you deal with a break up, how you heal on your own, how you should be dealing with your ex-gf, how you find yourself to have some healing, and how you patiently wait for the right person to come and not pushing yourself to a person whom you know loves you, but you are not happy with.
7. Happiness.
Happiness is when you find yourself laughing your heart out, without any anger. Happiness is when you can face everyone in this world without angst, or without prejudice. Happiness is when you find yourself overly contented on where you are even without anyone filling the happiness for you. Happiness is when you fall on a deep sleep at night and waking up smiling the next morning, and saying hello world! I'm alive.
8. Moving On.
It is a long journey. The feeling does not go away overnight, nor it will when you fall in love with another person. Moving on means that when one day you see him, and you'll just think he is like any other person you come across everyday. By that time you have achieved such, you already have moved on. Sometimes, we force ourselves to love another so that we can finally achieve the moving on part. But at times, when we find ourselves in the quiet corners of being alone, we find ourselves thinking of the other person who we havent had moved on from. Or later on in our life, we miss this particular person we have once loved, and have enough regrets to ponder on. This means you have not moved on yet, we just forgotten this person for awhile and yet he/she is still there in your heart.
9. No regrets.
Having regrets means you havent moved on. Its the "sayang" stage. But once you have thought that it is the best thing for you, then you finally have moved on.
10. Memories should not be forgotten.
I have conquered alot of fears in the process. For the past 3 months I have been trying to avoid places that we constantly hangout. Ironically, I have been in all those places now. Recently was glorietta, where we were for the past 5 years. I did not held hands with anybody while I was walking in glo, but there was a smile on my face, and peace on my mind that once I held hands with a person while I was walking there, strolling, like any other inlove person. It was the best memory yet. And I will not forget that. It should not be, because in this experience, lessons were learned and though my heart broke into a million pieces, rest assured I will be able to face the world with all confidence once again. Starting today.
I should be a relationship expert now, ei? hahahha!
I should be replacing Dra. Margie Holmes na pla. teehee. =D
On Willie.
We had a family dinner last night in Conti's BF when we saw a showbiz mag having Willie Revillame as a cover. Allegedly, he is going out with the daughter of a popular buena de familia, Rachel Arenas, daughter of Baby Arenas.
This blog is not actually about the biz, its actually how willie is such a lucky individual.
I heard its a rag to riches story. Willie was a former poor boy when the Aquinos strike luck on him. Ow, the luck all right. He was married three times I think, one is with the sister of Maricel Soriano, who I happened to meet sometime last year. Mikee Soriano is my client, he buys his clothes from me for his boutique in Metrowalk, where he had a daughter, Merryl. His second wife, is also a part of a buena familia, Princess Punzalan, and his last wife, a model.
Its cool how Willie becomes some sort of Oprah of the Philippines. Most of his endorsements becomes top of the line consumer products, his TV show, Wowowie is a household name, and even a 3 years old kid, knows the theme song of the show and dances with its tune.
I will never know what his secret is, nor will you. I think he has a sort of anting-anting that makes everything he says come to life.
Our discussion over dinner was, Willie vs. Oprah, Willie vs. Sy, Tan and Ayala and Willie vs. Pacquiao. And so as we heard, Willie purchased a 70 million worth of a yacht wherein he pays for its parking in the club worth Php 100,000 per month. Executives of big companies roughly earn this price, and the glory of without thinking much, he has a yacht worth 70 million.
You see, unlike business tycoons; Sy, Tan and the Ayalas, I'm sure at some point of their business life they have exerted much brain power to get where they are right now. Being a business tycoon is no joke, you have to really exert too much effort to get to the top. Willie on the other hand, though I am pretty sure exerted some effort on getting where he is, roughly exerted equal effort as much as the business tycoons.
Even Pacquiao, who is now enjoying millions of dollars, and is a world-renowned boxer have put his health and life at risk on his sport. I quote, "Bago naman magkapera si Pacquiao kelangan magpasuntok muna sha." On this note, compared to the effort exerted of Willie, Pacquiao would need to undergo so much physical pain just to obtain millions.
Similarly, Willie and Oprah are the most influential people I know on this business. My brother calls her, "Saint Oprah" as anything you do and say against her will aggravate America. These are the 2 people I think who has destiny in favor of them and money written on their palms.
The end of the dinner discussion was, unlike others who have exerted much to get where they are right now, these people need not much to be them. Willie for instance, though I am pretty sure, to get where he is right now, has worked hard for it whereas the others who have worked hard all their lives, cannot buy even a residential home worth a million.
I dont know, some people were just born lucky, or some are there luckily on the right place at the right time.
I wish I will be. Taya kaya ako sa lotto? =D
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